Tru,
Happy birthday and at the same time I am saddened to hear about your pet. I really know what it is like to have to take a pet for that last ride as I had to do it twice in a 2 month period about 3 years ago if you recall. I was so lost for a week after that I couldn't even get up in the morning and figure out what I was supposed to do. We had a routine and it was gone.
Best wishes and I know that today is going to be hard. Wish I could say something that would ease it, but I just don't know of any way to make it easier.
Ron