Thanks for the kind words everyone. If I can just get through this depression and make it for a week or so, I think I will slowly recover. Also not helping was the fact that I don't like taking medicine and instead of the 6 to 12 nerve pills a day I am supposed to take I had cut it to 3 or 4 for the past year and the last couple of months I have been having big blank spells that I don't remember anything. Anyway the blood tests showed no medication in my blood and now I find I was on the edge of another massive breakdown. God has to be very caring for fools. I am now taking the prescribed amount, but nothing will ever replace the emptiness I feel. So for a while if my posts seem even more messed up than normal. bear with me until I get enough medicine in me to get my mind back working half way. I figure I should have my IQ back up into the high 20s in a week or so.
Ron
